When you are suffering in the darkness and despair of wondering what you can do to get beyond it all....this was my epiphany

Life is often tough. There are a lot of rocks in the road to self-discovery. It takes a lot to learn what you need to do in order to be able to move past things when life gets hard.
Sometimes people will steal your heart, and make the world feel so much brighter for a while...and a lot of times that light ends up being stolen away...when they walk away, or when you no longer feel them even though they are right beside you...in that moment of longing for the memory of that person to be there in reality..the world will seem colder, and darker...
But it's all about growth, and learning from our mistakes..becoming a better person through the hurt and the tears because next time maybe it won't hurt so bad...or maybe there won't be any hurt at all...maybe that next light won't go away....
And we have the power to open our eyes and our world again..to draw back the curtain and see what has been in front of us the whole time...the person our heart mourns is still right there, right beside us...and when we open our hearts to the truth..beyond the taint of the past..and allowing it to drown our vision in anger and despair...when we drop the weight of those moments we have no reason to keep, those moments that burden our world and steal everything bright from the things that matter most..those moments that have turned us into something we not only are not, but something we loathe...only then can we see that our other half...the person who meant everything and made our world a home..a place we were happy and belonged, our own personal fairy tale...that person is still right there...drowning and suffering just as deeply as we are...
And it is our choice...our decision...whether having that person truly disappear forever from our world..and continue to destroy ourselves, looking in a broken..tarnished mirror from a lifetime ago..lose half our soul to a burden we don't have to carry...we can put it down...we can let it go and swim to the surface of all this darkness..
And in that journey from the brink of the abyss to redemption we can reach out to that other person...the once bright light in our world now flickering with pain and doubt..and we can take their hand...offer to share our world with them once more, the world without all the darkness of anger and regret...we can forgive, and we can ask forgiveness..and together we can reach the shore...we can begin a new journey....
a new life filled with an even brighter more satisfying light...one that begins as the ember of what we had before..the love that carried us through...and with the kindling of us both through all the adversity and hardships we faced..it will be even more magnificent than the light of our memory...and be full of so much more solace and meaning...because it will not be the ephemeral blaze of infatuation...it will be the sustaining burn of true love, forged from time and the unwillingness to be anything but together...