Submitted by c ur self on 05/05/2020.
The people I feel the most sadness for, or those who do not have a heart or mind capable of experiencing true love...I feel my wife is one of those people....If a man or women has no ability to give themselves completely, they will never experience the attachment God meant for us to experience as one flesh....Those of us who are blessed to be able to fully commit, and truly love, can also feel the pain of rejection much more pronounced....But, I would never trade the wonders of being able to love, for anything this world has to offer....
Finding a peaceful place...
Submitted by c ur self on
I have found that giving up (not pressing for isn't being freely given) has brought me great comfort...My wife also seems a little more comfortable and willing to face the effects of her life choices on the marriage... She has slipped into our bed sometime during the early morning hours, ( first time in months) the past two nights...So right before I started to get up this morning I feel a leg slide between mine...I was nice, I recognized her and softly rubbed it, but then I rolled on out and fixed my breakfast... So she found a reason to set in my lap today while I checked a place on her back she said was bothering her...And after I told her it was nothing, she requested I scratch her back...Maybe with out me pressing her to put energy into our marriage she has finally decide what is important...She walked in the bathroom while I was standing there naked getting ready to go to our Son's house last night, she stripped naked and hopped in the shower.. I made sure I didn't look at her, or say anything.. Not going to play the game...I want say real change is completely impossible, but I will say, if it happens it will be her taking ownership... And taking on a completely new attitude... One I have never witnessed (unless it was when she totally getting her way, and that spirit lasts only as long as her fun times...I am thankful God has allowed me to experience Love and Grace enough to have the peace I have, no matter what she does..,I do want her to feel zero pressure from me over the next months, so she can only look in the mirror when and if we go separate ways... If a marriage ends because one (or both) parties just don't want to honor their vows... Then the best case scenario is it be peacefully and calmly done...