Today is my late husbands birthday (first husband). It's always a hard day for me, so today I have been posting old pictures, and videos from him. I was close with him even when we separated, and my H knew this from the beginning of our relationship. You would think after all these years he would remember. But nothing. Not a word. But he did change his social media pictures to ones with out me in them... Which was the only place he even had a picture of me in the first place. Stupid that it hurts like this.
stupid that I thought he would have at least acknowledged what to day is.
Stupid that that even though I know he is leaving that there is a part of me that wishes he would "wake up" and want to do what it takes.
Stupid that hat even through all of this I still love him when he so clearly doesn't love me.
Tonight I am just stupid. Tonight I just hurt with a hundred losses and no empathy from the one who should love me and protect me.
But you know... A long as he
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
But you know... A long as he can watch his world of Warcraft videos... That's what matters.
I think he knows how hard the
Submitted by PoisonIvy on
I think he knows how hard the day was for you. But acknowledging that would give you priority over himself and his other interests, and he doesn't want to do that. I'm so sorry that you're suffering.
Thank you Rosered.... I know
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
Thank you Rosered.... I know you are right. And it both hurts and angers me. I would never let him hurting go unaddressed. I will say that I was sitting on the couch crying, and he asked me what was wrong, I said nothing because if he doesn't know after all this time, I won't waste my breath and hash over it again. Though, he did give me a sort of half hug. That something.
I Am So Sorry...
Submitted by GiveMePatience on
SS, I am so sorry about your loss... I'm sure that it is still hard...
Tomorrow will be a better day... ;)
Thankyou GMP. You are right,
Submitted by SpaceyStacey197... on
Thankyou GMP. You are right, tomorrow is a new day. And I am a strong person. This hurt will fade.
Stacey, no pictures of me either
Submitted by dedelight4 on
Stacey, no pictures of me either. It did hurt me a lot when my husband NEVER had any pictures of me in his office OR online, facebook. Tons of pictures of our grandbaby, friends, himself, but none of me and our girls. It made me feel like I had no importance in his life. I am an attractive woman, (without trying to sound conceited) and so is our daughters. ( beautiful women, inside and out)
It made me feel like he didnt want other women to know he was "attached". It doesnt matter now anyway, he's back together with his "true love", and we arent even divorced yet. He didnt think I would find out about it. There were a ton of texts on his phone, and they have been seeing each other, and going back and forth to see each other. (Several states away) plus I get in our car and I see she wrote her name on the windshield (where it had clouded up, and needed cleaning). I was livid. Here he was angry I left and said he wanted to work on things, but then he's with another woman.
Thing is, I KNOW she will leave him again, like she did the first time, when they were college "sweethearts". The reason she left the First time was because he didnt show her enough affection, and he didn't want sex enough. She had told my mother in law that, before she broke up with him. And my mother in law told ME about it a couple of years after he and I were married. Crazy huh
Stacey, it DOES hurt, and it hurts even more to know they werent honest enough to TELL US, in the beginning, that they really WEREN'T in love with us. They let us go on believing that we actually had a CHANCE of having a long life with them, when they didn't feel that way at all. A cowardly act, I believe.
Stacey, no pictures of me either
Submitted by dedelight4 on
Stacey, no pictures of me either. It did hurt me a lot when my husband NEVER had any pictures of me in his office OR online, facebook. Tons of pictures of our grandbaby, friends, himself, but none of me and our girls. It made me feel like I had no importance in his life. I am an attractive woman, (without trying to sound conceited) and so is our daughters. ( beautiful women, inside and out)
It made me feel like he didnt want other women to know he was "attached". It doesnt matter now anyway, he's back together with his "true love", and we arent even divorced yet. He didnt think I would find out about it. There were a ton of texts on his phone, and they have been seeing each other, and going back and forth to see each other. (Several states away) plus I get in our car and I see she wrote her name on the windshield (where it had clouded up, and needed cleaning). I was livid. Here he was angry I left and said he wanted to work on things, but then he's with another woman.
Thing is, I KNOW she will leave him again, like she did the first time, when they were college "sweethearts". The reason she left the First time was because he didnt show her enough affection, and he didn't want sex enough. She had told my mother in law that, before she broke up with him. And my mother in law told ME about it a couple of years after he and I were married. Crazy huh
Stacey, it DOES hurt, and it hurts even more to know they werent honest enough to TELL US, in the beginning, that they really WEREN'T in love with us. They let us go on believing that we actually had a CHANCE of having a long life with them, when they didn't feel that way at all. A cowardly act, I believe.