Submitted by s00manyquestions on 10/09/2015.
I just got slapped by reality. .. currently, sitting outside in the very brisk air, hiding ( stealing ) internet under the porch of someone I think I wE dating...til nowish. I think I'm homeless..have no money or anything else... oh yeah, now no adderall.
Really!? ... how is this sneeking up on me!?
Help! Omg. .. not panicked...jus numb. ..can't be good.
Do you have someone you can
Submitted by PoisonIvy on
Do you have someone you can stay with?
I'm outta town. I've been
Submitted by s00manyquestions on
I'm outta town. I've been 'away' from home ...running away from life, I think. I've been staying w ..guy.. n now it's time to go 'home' where my stuff is...in a house that has not been paid rent, n has unwelcome me. I don't even know if I can get in anymore. Maybe they changed the lock threw my stuff out. ..? Dramatic, maybe...but very well possible.
Can you be more clear?
Submitted by overwhelmedwife on
were you living with your partner and then he threw you out? Who lives at the home where you're on the porch using internet? Your boyfriend who you just broke up with?
How long were you together?
Why did you break up? did you have a Rx for Adderall or were just taking someone else's Rx?
And are you saying that you have some things at another home?
about 6 months ago, you wrote....
Submitted by overwhelmedwife on
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I'm saying all this as I sit in my X BF's house as we speak. A house that I once called my home (10 days ago). He broke up with me about a month ago and I moved out soon after. The devastation hit me hard. And yes, my ADHD played a huge role in the equation but so did many of his own behaviors. We had been so distant from one another for sooo long. He pushed me away and my behaviors lead him to his withdrawal from me and everyone else. He had isolated himself and it was damaging. I didn't realize how my ADHD behaviors effected our relationship at the time...I hadn't been diagnosed yet. I see it now. As hard as it is for me to take my responsibility for the suffering that I caused but I have to do so!! I don't want to feel as if years of my life was wasted nor do I want to replay this in the future.
As I've mentioned, we were grieving the lost of our son....so, I thought he just needed space so, I gave it to him. The last few months, I would ask him 3/4 x a week if we could talk or suggested doing some shared activity. He always refused and pushed me away. Over and over it played out...I thought: I"m giving him space while he's getting more and more frustrated, anger and resentful of me. Miscommunication. Or lack there of. .... there are many many lessons learned here. <<<
So, is this another relationship that has ended?
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your child.. When did that happen? How old was he? What happened?
Thank you oh doo very much
Submitted by s00manyquestions on
Thank you oh doo very much for reaching out to me! I don't even know where to begin...and I'm i8cre n desperate need for actual as l processing. I still haven't made it back 'home' (where all of my belongings are). I'm staying over night at a friend of my current love x. ...which h as opens to be in the Same building of him. A building of two units.
Quick answers for now: yes, I'm prescribed adderall. 2x daily 30mg IR, 2 150 mg Wellington and 2 150? Lexapro.
Yes...it appears to be as another break up....or as he wants: a break. It's my words of a break up. But yes: my mental state is a huge factor.
This guy is a gut from the past....12 yrs ago...? ..he's very dear to me n I think I'm self sabotaging out of fear...? Or maybe because I don't think I'm good enough... or I'm afraid of messing things up...his life. ....
My sweet boy Henry was 6.5mos. Traumatic time in hospital. His birthday was Sept. 30,2013. It's the first yr of his birthday that I've been broken pics Henry's father, once my love, turned monster.
That's all I can do right now.
I''ll post more tomorrow. But thank you for your thoughts.