Last night I ended it after reconciling for 3-4 months. He had broken up with me impulsively because I raised a continuing concern in the relationship. I've always attributed his conflict behaviors (gaslighting, blame shifting, defensiveness, contempt, stonewalling) to RSD but have never been clear on if that's what it is or he just a narcissistic person.
Anyway, he was stonewalling after a blowout and I texted him that our relationship is toxic and I want to release us both. He read some of it and then I'm pretty sure blocked me.
So I'm just going to push through the pain, I just needed to share. I know this cycle has to stop and I have to stick with it. I felt strong in the past but it's hard to break the attachment. It helps to remind myself of what the issues are. We are majorly incompatible.
So relatable
Submitted by Swedish coast on
I hear you. This is a hard thing you're doing. I'm there too - sad to have to end it all, even though the relationship has been a nightmare for a long time.
All the friendly support I've received on this forum has encouraged me to continue separation, even when I thought I couldn't and didn't even want to.
So I'll pass it on to you. Congratulations on making a decision that can change everything for the better! You are so strong doing this despite the mixed feelings. It will be difficult perhaps, before it gets better. But those who've done it speak of a peaceful future ahead. I wish you all the best on your way there.
Thank you so much. It is
Submitted by CANTGOBACK (not verified) on
Thank you so much. It is wrenching but I also know I can't compromise with where it's come to. Just sucks. I can't even cry yet I just feel resolved and numb. Haven't begun to grieve yet.