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- by: Swedish coast - Again your perspective of faith is so valuable. I believe the relationship with the divine is an important part of ourselves. For people like me who've lost religion a couple generations ago there is a void which takes a lot of inspiration to fill. Of course secular humanism also attributes us with innate value as humans. Like you I want to contribute to kindness and generosity. But the feeling of being a child of the divine... regardless of how well liked I am by others, that I can never have. When the...>>> on Forum topic - Self worth
- by: J - I know on the list of ADHD symptoms, the angry outbursts are right there on the list. This is something I've been working on trying to figure out. With me, I can generally tell you what I'm angry about even if it's blown out of scale. In other words, it is attached to something, not just out of the blue for no reason at all. And if asked, I can pretty much always tell you why I'm mad that makes some logical sense. One of the few times I've been angry lately, that even I was questioning myself, had to do...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: c ur self - But the reason the outburst of emotion's surface so quickly and unexpectedly in my wife's case isn't the belonging...(She is loved by all family and friends, she can go off on)...It's the desire to attach belonging w/ control and manipulation... She will never not be someone who you must keep at arms length, not because you don't love her, but, because you do...When there is no ability lived out, to not demand self centered expectations of what needs to happen next, you better recognize it!!...With her, at...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: c ur self - Hi Dagmar....It's been 16 years of chaos for me....But learning to master our emotions (keep our peace) always takes "trusting they will always be that person"....What that does for us is, it keeps us from ever being shocked or emotional because they are just being who they are... A good boundary for those who stay with a person we can't trust is..."Live kindly, but never trust my spouse's living want be chaotic, much of the time" ...When we get up in the morning w/ a new and refreshed false hope, that is...>>> on Forum topic - Everything is wrong
- by: c ur self - Interesting question....When I consider the dynamic of self worth, it set's off a few warning alarms in my mind as it relates to myself...As a young man growing up with divorced parents and no Dad present in our home (3 of us boys and a hard working mom) it was just natural that I would form some insecurities when comparing myself against other's who had more stabile and financially able home life's (two parent family's)...Then add on that I became a believer and realized the gospel warned me to "not think...>>> on Forum topic - Self worth
- by: J - As I read this past description in terms of ego Death. This must sound like the worst thing ever? From the description, and even the notion of ego death sounds like a horrible proposition when in fact, it was the most enlightening moment of that entire experience for me. When the "you" is gone, and the your ego dissolves into everything, everywhere....you become part of the whole, in the big picture...and realize you are an intragal part of the universe. ( seriously ) You are no longer you, but part of...>>> on Forum topic - Psilocybin
- by: J - Just adding the description here for comparison: "The late Terrence McKenna famously described the “heroic dose,” his preferred way of diving into the full depth of the mushroom experience: Five dried grams of mushrooms in silent darkness. At 1% psilocybin content, five grams will contain about 50 mg of psilocybin. At this dose, there’s not much you can do but lay down somewhere comfortable and let the experience wash over you. “You” won’t really be there once it hits. It will most likely be overwhelming...>>> on Forum topic - Psilocybin
- by: J - Because this entire conversation about mushrooms is now becoming mainstream, ( versus 30 years ago when I had my ego Death experience- heroic dose ) the information out there outlines specific doses to achieve a specific level of experience. I'm not really interested in doing the heroic dose route or trying to recreate it per se, I'm more interested in finding a one time dose that will give me a lasting beneficial effect. John Hopkins research center has arrived at between 20mg -30mg of active agent or 3...>>> on Forum topic - Psilocybin
- by: J - Another, by accident, coincidence. Music and nature have a big role to play. This I'd more, just filling in details of my story involving Mushrooms. Because the effect lasts up to 8 hours with the most intense part lasting 4 or 5. In high school, there weren't many options to get away from the house for that long without being discovered. I basically had three options: camping, music concerts ( including waiting in line for hours ) and skiing. Those all involved being away from home that long so you...>>> on Forum topic - Psilocybin
- by: J - I included this article in another post but though it was worthy of this discussion. Just one read through and it's impossible not to notice the mentions of : depression, pattern thinking, rumination, rigid thought patterns, excess self focus and the mention of "other" psychiatric conditions. And how this mechanism, as they're calling it, addresses these issues directly. I can't speak to any of this because neuroscience is not in my realm of understanding of all the specifics mentioned about receptors...>>> on Forum topic - Psilocybin
- by: J - I would remiss if I didn't say something here, about what I've said. In case someone reading this thinks I'm romanticizing the taking of Psychedelics in any way, I'm not. What I did was purely my own and by no means should anyone think it's a good idea to do what I did. I know, for a fact, some people should NOT do psychedelic drugs especially those with a predisposition to be schizophrenic. As I understand it, it's a bad combination. Some people are not predisposed to have a good experience at all. I...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: J - This theory is based on one man's personal experience ( me ) going back to a teenager. This involves RSD . The first major depressive episode I remember was in high school, directly related to a falling out with some friends. Two in particular, were very close to me. I realize now, this rejection was RSD related and I took it really hard. This lasted for a couple years until I graduated. During this time was when I first discovered mushrooms and began picking them every year from then on until my mid...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: J - As I understand it, research in this area was not being conducted and dismissed because of its history, illegality and initial use as a counter culture recreational drug. Johns Hopkins as well as others research centers are paving the way for its benefits in certain areas of mental health. I just happen to stumble onto it, by unintentionally taking such a large dose which I would never have done otherwise. Here's one recent article from 2022 that I thought was really interesting. I'm not promoting this...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: Swedish coast - Oh I see, I had no idea this was something used medically. In my country, this isn't done yet. Funny how all kinds of things change and your knowledge with it.>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: J - I had taken Psilocybin many times previously. They grew only 2 mile from my house growing up so we'd go pick them every year right about this time. Actually, exactly at this time a year. They were abundant, readily available and free.>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: J - I should have given some backstory. Over Thirty years ago, I had an event, you might call it, where I had an old empty vile from years before, that was given to me that had some high grade ( Liquid ) LSD in it but was dried out. On impulse, I threw some water in the vile and shook it up, then proceed to drink it thinking it probably wouldn't have done anything after so long, but maybe, just a little bit. I did this before going to an outdoor concert. As it turned out, not only did it work but went far...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: Swedish coast - Now I don't know much about recreational drugs. But mightn't there be a problem with taking LSD if you want to be reliable and responsive to a partner (or a family)? All I've read points to self-awareness and attention to detail being important when nourishing a loving relationship. But maybe like car drivers are safer on coffee, there might be a good substance for relationships too...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: c ur self - Healthy Invalids, user's of others, this is exactly why I've asked her to move in the first place, when a heart and mind is so locked into not taking responsibility for themselves at the expense of others, they like all the animal kingdom, must be pushed from the nest...You said it perfectly! I have worked real hard (for many years) to see it for what it is, and not allow her actions to create unthankfulness or a victim state in my own mind...God is good! Bless you friend! c>>> on Forum topic - A year after divorce
- by: J - Coming back to what you said Swedish....about being desperate. This may not be the context that you were referring to, but I had another thought on how to approach this entire topic of RSD. For that matter, ADHD in general. Thinking big picture, macro solutions, without over complicating things. If RSD is pain, then how do you approach chronic pain in a person? Pain management ie: pain medication? That's what many do...with drugs and alchohal...specifically: opiates and alchohal and possibly Marijuana. ...>>> on Forum topic - RSD, What is it?
- by: J - Awareness IS NOT the only real medicine, which now seems like a ridiculous thing to say. I can forgive myself for my own ignorance including much of my past posts which I just started to reread. The value, in having the ability to read what you said in the past, shows you how little you know compared to after you've learned new information and had new experiences along the way is immeasurable. It shows me at least, how far I've come. This really just shows me that I was just scratching the surface. Not...>>> on Blog entry - What is Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and How Does it Relate to ADHD?