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- by: J - I also see this as:1) needing to take some kind of action to effect change or 2) waiting for some kind of action to happen to you from an external source. I would love to win the lottery...but in the mean time, I know I need to take some kind of action to earn money to live. That's another way to look at. It's an intentional act.>>> on Forum topic - "No man is free who is not master of himself " - Locus of Control
- by: J - So I get a call from my SO this morning from work ( I'm off today ) to tell me she's sorry that she gets irritated with me sometimes. She also admitted that she forgets to take her meds sometimes and gets cranky and last night was one of those times. Her son and daughter in law were over with their new twins, and in a moment that I can hardly remember, she got short with me over something I can barely remember. I don't always hear things because I'm moderately hearing impaired and hearing aids aren't...>>> on Forum topic - Trophic Cascade: How Wolves Changed Rivers
- by: Catterfly - Hi J, I hadn't heard of "locus of control" before, so looked up the related research. They explain it in a couple of ways. Those with an external locus of control believe that things happen to them, that they have little control over it, and that their misfortune is not their fault. Those with an internal locus of control believe that they have the power to affect their world and outcomes of choice. Another way to look at this is a fixed mindset vs a growth mindset. This makes a lot of sense in my...>>> on Forum topic - "No man is free who is not master of himself " - Locus of Control
- by: Swedish coast - Dear all, I appreciate your answers so much. Now I've managed to get rid of some tasks. My ex husband will be in charge of some quite burdensome things I've previously always done. It sounds insignificant, but it's been important for me to let go of them. Being in touch with him gives me physical stress symptoms, and I've been so angry today I felt like I'd burst an artery. But it's worth it. I've experienced a lot of dishonesty in the last year, including the opacity and the acting now. ADHD or not,...>>> on Forum topic - The relaxed happy ex
- by: vienna123 - Hi ADHD32. As previously mentioned - i know its not as simple as moving on. The past trama is very real for her and i dont have a right to deny those feelings. What i will say is that when i have changed so much since those time, apologied profusely and made mysefl vulnerable it becomes really diffficult when that isnt accepted. We have a great life together - she will even say so - but this one issue has stopped her from seeing the changes. It feels unfair that forgiveness is not at all seen as a...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: vienna123 - Thanks for your advice- i do understand the level of hurt that she must be experiencing. It isn't something one can just "get over". Your experience sounds awful. What a horrible thing to have gone through.>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: adhd32 - A common thing in therapy today is dealing with past trauma, as you are doing. What I think you are missing is that your past behavior toward your wife was traumatizing to her. In your mind you feel that because you are working on yourself now she should just move on and package up all of the hurt from the past 17 years because you feel it is historic. You have no right to tell her how to feel and no right to put a time limit on how or when she heals. She must work on the marital trauma at her own pace...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: honestly - I don't have your wife's rage, perhaps, but there are things that happened in my marriage years ago - 20 years ago in some instances - that I am not 'over'. I think that's because they are learning experiences. With each act of selfishness or thoughtlessness, laziness or egotism, my husband was showing me who he was. And I learned - slowly, stupidly slowly - that that was what to expect from him. So (to give one example) he shook me awake from my first nap after giving birth, when I was exhausted beyond...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: Swedish coast - You write from intense pain, I'm so sorry this is happening. I don't know the details of your long life together of course, so please bear with me if I misunderstand. It seems to me your wife has decided on divorce. I think there is probably little to be done to change this. She has left twice and returned, but now she's decided. I've divorced an ADD husband in the last year after decades together. I did it 18 months after his ADD diagnosis and optimized treatment. Among other things I took home the...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: Swedish coast - I'm sorry Bill, it sounds difficult. As far as I know, the thing about ADHD executive dysfunction is there is no reliable way to work around many issues. Control and reminder systems fail for the same reason the primary attempt fails. There is such poor ability to make things happen. Another thing I discovered in the feverish months after diagnosis when my ex husband and I tried to make our everyday life function, was that every ADHD friendly routine we invented had the same weakness. It was never...>>> on Forum topic - Here's a BIG question for all you spouses- AITAH?
- by: vienna123 - Thanks for your reply - i really appreciate it. I do see the point of negativity bias - it plays a big part in many peoples lives. I think the key difference here is that the level of anger diplayed about events - some of which are 15 years ago - bear little relation to the actual act. However I completely understand that in her view this hurt is massive, and she feels it intensley and as she said the other day - the events may be old but to her they feel like they happened yesterday. I simply dont know...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: vienna123 - Thanks for the reply - i really do appreciate it. The negativity is noted and does indeed occur for all people. In this case however i do believe it is much more linked to ADHD than previously suspected. Why? Simply due to the fact that the rages from her are so powerful, objectively very diproportiaonte to the wrong that i caused. Furthermore nearly all events are really past event - some 15 plus years ago. Now i am adamant to know that this does in no way diminish that hurt. its very real and...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: honestly - This sounds awful for you. I have just a couple of thoughts, as someone closer to your wife's situation than yours, though I don't have ADHD. Firstly 'Negativity Bias' is a common human trait; it's psychologically 'normal' to be more affected by negative experiences than positive ones. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Negativity_bias - so it's not unusual that your wife can't immediately get past some very negative experiences in your shared past. The second thought is that she will have written what she...>>> on Forum topic - Resentment and Divorce - Need help!
- by: janapal - I wish there was more information and resources about this. I'm in such relationship, and I'm struggling very hard with my own ADHD, which I manage ok-ish (not without consequences, bad ones: burn out, trauma) and partner's pretty much unmanaged ADHD (he takes medication but that's it). I love him but it's a burden I'm not handling very well.>>> on Blog entry - 14 Tips for When Both Partners Have ADHD
- by: J - ....is one way to learn, but if I had only known about my having ADHD earlier, I believe that things might have been different. I'm one of those who was actually overjoyed at first in finally getting an answer to all the questions I had about my life. I actually liked going to therapy and learning everything I could. So, for me, I'm guessing, I would have done the same thing no matter when it happened? But I was very willing to do just about anything to not get divorced again ( a 2nd time ) and I very...>>> on Forum topic - ADHD Spouse, poor verbal impulse control and lashing out
- by: honestly - That's really interesting! Without meaning to be too reductive, it does sound like it's the past experience of the nuclear option that enabled both you and your SO to be reflective and responsive in your relationship with each other. Learning by hard experience, I suppose.>>> on Forum topic - ADHD Spouse, poor verbal impulse control and lashing out
- by: J - Hi Honesty, This sounds oh so familiar. So much of what you said here was exactly what happened to me. I don't really have an exact answer, on how to get someone with ADHD to hear you and actually understand how important it is that this stuff matters but, nothing really changed with me until I went to marriage counseling which still ultimately lead to divorce. During counseling, the therapist even told me he thought I had ADHD, and even then, I couldn't hear him. It wasn't until I started reading up on...>>> on Forum topic - ADHD Spouse, poor verbal impulse control and lashing out
- by: honestly - ... and many of my own woes. You give out calm, affectionate and considerate vibes, and you get anger back. It's horrible. It's unfair. It's so common here. You have my sympathies. X>>> on Forum topic - Anger due to forgetfulness
- by: honestly - because the only thing that has made my OH even attempt to change his behaviour, rather than straight up blaming me for all that's wrong in his life and any problems we have as a couple (and we have only moved a few short steps in a positive direction anyway) was me telling him I wanted a divorce. He, it turned out, had been happy. He had thought I was. All his anger had been no big deal and he hadn't thought anything I had been saying about it was 'important'. So in truth I don't know what consequences I...>>> on Forum topic - ADHD Spouse, poor verbal impulse control and lashing out
- by: J - Hi Quiet Crescent. My ADHD SO has done something similar and it definitely has to do with stress. Her stress, which primarily comes from work. Her response to this was to start complaining and criticizing me. This could go on for several days. What I did was wait and not say anything at first. I waited until the complaining and criticizing stopped and she was not in that mode. She criticized me once more about being needy by simply asking something from her. She was also complaining about the cats being...>>> on Forum topic - ADHD Spouse, poor verbal impulse control and lashing out