Many of us get caught up in overthinking and over analyzing our spouse's lives...The product of this is destructive (stress, anxiety, depression) to our own mental, emotional and physical health...After reading here for many years and being subjected to my wife's lived out life 16 years, I have realized the pressure and reality of not being able to get to a place that is healthy, a place of sharing and trust has left it's mark on me....Over thinking, Over analyzing, it can start new everyday if we are not careful...I feel like all the work (acceptance, boundaries, refusing egg shells, my own life focus) I have put in has helped me over the years w/ my own stress levels, when it comes to over thinking....But, if I am honest w/ myself, I am not taking a totally healthy mind into our separation, far from it....And most of us here would probably agree, not many could...But, I do want to be free from the overthinking...I would like to breathe w/out invading thoughts about her life!....Of course this over thinking is self inflicted, but, I have found it very HARD to stop! ...Just to be free from the daily unknown w/ her, the daily inability to trust, to communicate with, to approach the person who I was suppose to be able to approach all these years, I think will be a huge relief mentally and emotionally....It doesn't mean I will stop caring, it just means that the way she lives everyday, (Independently controlling) will now more match how she will live, (alone)....She isn't here, when she's here....If you know what I mean....
Please be careful about allowing your minds to overthink and over analyzing your spouse's lives....It's in our own best interest...And we can't do one thing about it....If love, prayer, and being a responsible example in life doesn't impact them, then we can't, in any good way that is!
Blessings to all...
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